Thursday, 21 January 2016
RIP Twenties - Welcome to the Dirty Thirties
It's official. My twenties are dead. Leading up to this day a lot of people have been asking me how I feel to be closing this chapter in my life. More often then not, they are surprised to hear that I am happy and excited...until they hear the reasons why.
I found my Zen.
I may not always be in a constant state of peace, but I have learned how to find it. I used to get into fights a lot that didn't really accomplish much. Not to discredit my innate courage, I am still a spitfire, but these days I choose my battles and weapons carefully.
I have stopped wasting my time.
I don't give my time on things that don't positively impact my life. Hate and anger can't sit with us. It doesn't do anything except stress me out! And who the hell needs more of that?!
I am pickier of who I give the privilege to stand in my circle.
This was the hardest thing for me to do because I give a lot of myself to my friends. your relationships make life worth living, so you would think it would be the thing that people would invest the most in. But I have realized not everyone feels the same as me. I have been used, lied to, and tossed away and yet I would still try to build on that dying relationship. Well not anymore. I stopped letting people hurt me. I can't force people to make the effort I am making. Friendship does not work that way.
I found myself.
I thought I knew who I was. And maybe I did...a little bit. But it was only until recently that I understand my limits, what I am capable of, what I can tolerate, what I'm willing to sacrifice for, what I can give up. I understand the reason behind what I do.
So I'm slightly different now than I have been in the past 10 years. I am happier, more chill. And now, looking forward, I am excited for my 30's! I will do MORE in this decade than my last. There are still so many things I want to do. And if anyone out there thinks I'm about to retire from partying, I will meet you at the bar to have that debate. It's so stupid that people have a benchmark of where and who we should be at 30. Sorry, you want me to trade in shots for wine?! Let's be honest the only wine I love is pon di dancefloor. WUDUPPP!
People who are sad about getting older are holding on to something. I have no "glory days" to hang on to because mine have not yet come! That is why I'm not upset with every year that passes. Time will be kind to me because I won't waste it or take it for granted.
So world, this is another new beginning for me. I'm opening a new chapter full of unknown adventures. I will continue on my journey with some grace and badassery and take comfort knowing that I HAVE NOT PEAKED YET. Let's do this, Dirty Thirties! I'm jumping into you with open arms!
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