Secrets Revealed: Why I’ve Been On Hiatus?!

I feel like before I continue blogging again, I should probably prelude that with why I have been gone since January. And for the most part, I have been pretty absent from my other social media feeds up until recently. It’s because I’ve been keeping some BIG secrets.

I guess here is the public announcement...

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I am a Feyonce.

Yes, my boyfriend (with the help of my friends) proposed back in January on my 30th birthday. Surprise! You're old! HAHAHA! So how could I have kept this all a secret for the majority of 2016?? How could we possibly keep this news from bubbling up?? Unlike most newly-engaged couples, we didn’t want to rush and make the initial announcement of such an important milestone in our lives all over social media. In this age of technology, we really wanted be present in the moment and add a personal touch by letting our family and friends know directly from us and not through a post on our Facebook pages. We want the important people in our lives to know how much we care about them by taking the time to personally share the news.

I got A LOT of anxiety when this all happened. I was not expecting it and it caught me off guard. For a whole week I felt incredibly overwhelmed and nauseous. I really felt like throwing up. Seriously. I’m a pretty organized person and like having some structure in my life. I tend to plan out major, long-term decisions in my life. So my brain was racing. I have to plan a wedding! I have to find a place to live! How can I afford all this? Our families need to meet! Is he ready?! AM I READY?!

I would say after about 3 weeks, the idea had settled into my mind and I just jumped into planning my life! I became really busy (I still am.) Within that time I was breaking the news to people. On top of that, a wave of changes quickly started happening simultaneously. One of which, I was going through an interview process with a company which I ended up getting a job with. So new job, new commitment, new life plan. Great. Wait. We still have nowhere to live! House hunting also began immediately.

From time to time I do still feel a little pukey with this whole engagement. I am not doubting my relationship or my f-...f-...fiance (still weird saying it) but new steps, especially large ones, are really scary and uncomfortable. Change and uncertainty will often do this to you, but it brings upon much more happiness and growth. Although I am really anxious, I am excited to see what this next phase in life has for me. I know it’s going to make me the toughest, most patient person I have ever been. So watch out world! Rizzi 3.0 will be arriving before we know it!

As you can see, I have been “adulting” hardcore. But now that I am back, I hope to be posting more regularly. I just find Social Media, though has its great parts, also has a downside which I find the majority of people fall into (that’s a talk for another day). I don’t want to be a slave to “Likes” because I want to actually LIVE LIFE rather than show people I am living. Even now, I am not publicly announcing my engagement because I am seeking approval from my peers or front like my life is wonderful and perfect. I am sharing this news because it is/will be relevant in the material I post on this blog, sharing my experiences and tips. And I’m not some asshole who will go on not acknowledging the obvious. The purpose of this blog, after all, is to motivate people to be the best possible version of themselves through inspiration and sharing some useful tips I pick up along the way.

So now you know, we can get back to our regularly scheduled program!