Growing up, I didn’t spend much time wishing I was older than I was because I knew eventually I would get there. I tried to enjoy and make the most of my time at the age I was because I also knew I would never be back there again. So now, staring down the barrel of my next decade I feel a strange sense of calm. I have seen many 29 year olds feel anxious and somewhat depressed that decade of their life is over. But for me, I’m satisfied it’s done!
I spent the
better part of my 20’s trying to get my
shit together and finding a balance in my life. I know you're feelin' me on this one! I was trying to figure out
what kind of adult and global citizen I wanted to be. I slowly discovered the
life I want was not what I thought I wanted. I became lost as I tried to find
my start point. It felt everyone zoomed passed me and I was left to awkwardly wander through the dust. I felt pressured (and still do…a little) to do the whole
marriage-house-baby thing EVERYONE on Facebook seems to be doing. My 20’s was a time where,
not only did I find myself, but I kicked it up a hundred notches.
People think
I’m closer to 20 than I am 30 and I think it’s because of the way I
unconsciously portray myself. I matured but I kept my youthful spirit. It also
helps that my genetics (& skincare regimen) keeps the look of age at bay.
I’m not trying to attain an image of what 30-somethings ought to be, hosting dinner parties and having a business wardrobe. I don’t
feel I’m too old for anything. Am I done partying? No. Am I going to give up my short shorts and mini skirts? HAHAHA No. Will I trade in my shots
of tequila for a glass of wine? Absolutely not, if anything, I will be mixing
them together.
In the next
month leading up to the big 3-0, I want to embark on a journey through
reflection on a trying decade of my life and how I am preparing for the next
big adventure. I think a lot of people my age are going through something like
a quarter-life crisis. Hopefully my insight during this past decade may help
you get through yours!
But I love hosting dinner parties.
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